I’m Getting Real Here…A Vulnerable Post

I try my best to be as real as possible!

But I have a hard time opening up at times.

But there are things I struggle with.

I am trying to be very real here. So bear with me. I usually never share things this personal.

Here’s the biggest one-

-My weight-

I often feel like my weight disqualifies me as personal trainer, fitness and yoga instructor. Now, I know that, I know my stuff! Lord, I have enough certifications to prove that!

But I often feel like a failure due to my weight.

I know that I am in great health, I’m strong and fit. I workout 5 days a week, doing weights and cardio as well as yoga 2-3 times a week. This is on top of the classes I teach during the week! I eat very healthy and limit junk food to one reward meal a week.

I do have some issues physically! I struggle with hypothyroidism. It makes losing weight tough and seemingly next to impossible. I also struggle with metabolic damage/burnout- from years of over exercising and under eating(I am working on this currently to repair my metabolism and it sucks. But I have to be patient). I also struggle with fibromyalgia from time to time. Eating healthy, using essential oils and taking my doTERRA Life Long Vitality vitamins help to keep it under control most of the time!

My Other Struggle-

I am trying to be very real here. So bear with me. I usually never share things this personal.

Negative Self Talk

I really struggle with this. I hate it.

I am trying to accept myself for how I look currently but loath myself because I don’t look like I did at my lowest weight.

I really struggle with beating myself up over this.

I try to remind myself that I am loved by God most of all and all the wonderful people I have in my life.

But that ugly voice often yells louder than the sensible voice that says all that is not true!

That ugly voice tells me I am a fraud and not qualified because I weigh more than the average personal trainer.

It’s a struggle.

The Truth-

Whenever I struggle with this I try to feed myself God’s Word, the Truth.

2 Corinthians 10:5 says, “We capture their rebellious thought and teach them to obey Christ”. I try to capture my thoughts and think rationally.

Psalm 139:14, “I am fearfully and wonderfully made”. I have to remind myself God makes not mistakes.

Genesis 1:27, “So God created mankind in His own image” We are made in God’s image and He is awesome!

Galatians 3:26, “For you are all children of God through faith in Christ Jesus”. I am a daughter of a King!!!

Please Don’t Judge-

We all have our warts.

We all have struggles.

These just happen to be some of mine.

I am a work in progress.

And NO I do not hear actual voices. It’s just my negative self confidence(and I think the enemy also feeds us those ugly thoughts as well).

What about you?

Do you have struggles like mine?

Do you fight with a negative voice that tells you are less than?

I’d love to hear what you think!

Comment below!



3 thoughts on “I’m Getting Real Here…A Vulnerable Post”

  1. Its like you are writing my very own story.
    And often, for me, the negative self speak wins, and I sabotage my own goals. I’m fighting myself everyday…(today I lost)(but tomorrow i will try again).

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